Rainbow - by Gemma

Right from the moment I saw those two pink lines my excitement and anxiety grew with you 

Another pregnancy that will result in loss we will have to wait and see 

I counted each day and week like a ticking clock counting down to doom  

Never knowing if any moment could be our last together but hoping that wasn’t true 

Belly growing and feeling every movement but I still wouldn’t let myself believe  

On the screen I saw you move and heard your heart beat, couldn’t bring myself to find out your gender in case that too was taken away from me 

When they placed you on my chest my life finally felt complete, the anxiety hasn’t gone away but now I can call myself your mother 

 You are my rainbow after the storm of loss, I carried that emotional storm inside me with you and now you carry the rainbow name with you my sweet Iris.